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Whenever I tell myself that I will have graduated by next year June, I think this is incredible. I think so not because I think time goes fast. It is because I can't believe that I still survive after all these years. (^^;)
Seriously, I have been having an unusually stressful life since the day I got into the university. The stress does not merely come from the study. There have been many things going through my life including family, career, money, friend and other personal issues. More often, I found myself did not have enough spare time to do things that I want to do.
Although I was able to take a year off to Japan, I have already got used to the stressful university life. Very often, I couldn't make myself relaxing when I hanged out with my friends. I kept telling myself the happiness will not last long and I soon will return to Canada and suffer. (^^;)
Same thing happened after I came back to Canada. This Christmas, after finishing all the assignments, group projects, exams, and part-time job and volunteer work duties, I was supposed to relax and enjoy my 20 day break. I was doing fine for the first week. However, a few days ago I started having nightmares such as failing to get a job and failing in a course. The worst thing is that even though I was waiting for a long break for a long time, I found myself bored like hell now. (That's why I update "Hachimitsu House" almost everyday.)(^^;)
I totally understand the fact that I am not the only one. However, I believe this kind of stress can significantly shorten a person's life span. For the past few years, I lost interest in some of my hobbies (i.e. drawing). Although I am drawing for "Anita's Gallery", I am not as enthusiastic as I used to be. Recently I even found myself doesn't enjoy listening to music and watching videos as much as I used to.
Life
is tough.
